maxdope language & the mekanics

        The Yule Colour Palette Xmas Blues A.K.A : The darkness amidst the lights The time has come when everything everywhere  is bright and colourful.  Everywhere except within you.  Christmas lights and pretty ornaments  adorn the streets, the houses,  the shops and an atmosphere of joy  and spiritual elation fills the air.  But not for you. Your soul is dry and empty  and no matter how much you try  to match the jolly feeling of  the season you fail miserably.  It makes you feel even worse,  guilty even though you cannot  partake in the festive mood.  You are not alone.  There are others like you, hundreds,  dare I say thousands that are  the way you are and experience  what you are experiencing.  Do not despair (not unless you want to),  not over this. You don’t have to follow the herd.  You are not obliged to dive deep  into the manmade cheer of the sea...

    cog-words     t he countdown to the new year   by Maxifern From busy bee to freak fly! Whatever happened to the butterfly y'all? You are the epicenter of your  own metamorphosis. You know you are breaking out of your cocoon. No wonder, people keep telling you,  you are acting weird,  distant and aloof! You can't but wonder then yourself  after each forced socializing session,  if the road to authenticity is for the better or for worse? You are not a butterfly yet, mate! You are still in the freaking state of  a fly feeding over some shinny shit! This recycling stage can take,  it feels, forever! The risk to get stuck is undeniably alluring.. You need this shit you've been  told, to survive.. ( when you confuse security with familiarity) You need this shit to be loved.. ( when you confuse loyalty with self-abandoment) Just repeat to yourself over and over, again and again.. (till your wings get ...